So since I am switching blogs I thought I would give a quick intro as a reminder and then as introduction for any new readers I may get.
I am Heather and 26 years old. In November my ex husband left and could not handle the stress that I was going through. Then in March he filed for the divorce and at the end of April the divorce was finalized. Now I learning how to be single again, have been out of it for the last 3 years. It has been hard at times but in a way it has been such a blessing, will explain in later posts. Right now just working and having fun while leaning on my friends and family. More posts to come!!
Any one know though how to take other posts from another blog and move them to here?? I need some so I can link old blogs to new blogs.
June 5, 2009
February 8, 2009
New Blog
So welcome to my new blog. I will slowly be pulling some of the old posts from other blog. There are posts from that that will help explain future posts. It is just finally time to move on from the past and start my new future. Right now I am focused on getting my better, learning more about me and relearning the single life. So again welcome.
January 25, 2009
A Poem
So I have had all these emotions bottled up in me about how things how I have been feeling. So I thought I would share, so here it goes.....
I heard one of our songs driving home today,
The tears started to come out with so many emotions attached,
I was sad, hurting, angry, reminded of our wedding day when we danced to that song
so in love and thinking about the future we were going to have.
But that future has been cut short since you walked and left.
I come to an empty house, I am still not used to you not being there.
At night it weirds waking up not having you in the bed with me.
Noises bother me at night because I dont feel safe anymore.
There are days when I all I want to do is just come home
lay on the couch and cuddle like we just too.
Do you realize that you are my mind constantly?
I am beginning to dread those special times knowing I am alone.
I hate seeing other people who are so happy and I am miserable
I was looking forward to our future together and no that future has gone
Passed Away, time to start rebuilding myself and my future without you in it.
So goodbye hope life treats you well.
I heard one of our songs driving home today,
The tears started to come out with so many emotions attached,
I was sad, hurting, angry, reminded of our wedding day when we danced to that song
so in love and thinking about the future we were going to have.
But that future has been cut short since you walked and left.
I come to an empty house, I am still not used to you not being there.
At night it weirds waking up not having you in the bed with me.
Noises bother me at night because I dont feel safe anymore.
There are days when I all I want to do is just come home
lay on the couch and cuddle like we just too.
Do you realize that you are my mind constantly?
I am beginning to dread those special times knowing I am alone.
I hate seeing other people who are so happy and I am miserable
I was looking forward to our future together and no that future has gone
Passed Away, time to start rebuilding myself and my future without you in it.
So goodbye hope life treats you well.
November 18, 2008
Bye Bye Hair
*****Please note on this blog, I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. What I am going to say in this is me venting and my personal feelings. I have had these feelings bottled up because my friends & family really don't understand. I just need to get out. This blog is more like I am writing in a journal.So if you dont like it or have some negative to say then don't. I need to let these feelings out before I blow. Thank you for reading and now back to your regular schedule. *******
I know that is a weird title post but that is what has happened in the last couple of weeks. Some may have now whats been happening if you have been on facebook. Also if you read my blog you may know that I have slowly losing my hair. It has been a really rough time during all of this. I have people staring at me looking like I have some disease, can't do much with my hair, the doctors not nowing what caused this. So my mom and I had been talking about getting me a wig till for the time being. The spots on my head kept getting worse especially the back of my head, I am almost bald to the very top of my head. So they finally came in last two weekends. So in the last week and a half I went to my hair dresser and we cut most of my hair off. I really thought I was going to cry but surprisely I didn't. I think I cried that weekend after seeing how short my hair is and how most of my hair is gone. The first couple of days in the wigs was hard. First it was uncomfortable and the caps for the wigs were itchy, itchy. I felt some days my head was so itchy I had lice. I am still learning how to style them and make them look really cute. Most of the time I feel like I look like a fool. Also during this time my wig has given me blisters off the top of my head and it was very painful. They have finally gone away.
During that time I was wearing a little bandana/scarf deal, I think that was worse than the wigs. People were making fun of me saying I look like a gangster, I am trying to be hood, people staring at me and looking at me like I have a disease. This past weekend I went grocery shopping and I had people laughing, pointing and whispering about me. It was so embrassing. All I wanted to do was go home and cry. My husband says I just shake it off but it is hard when your hair helps your confidence.
Sometimes I wish I had more confidence especially the girls of my wedding board. I look up to a lot of the girls because it seems like have all the confidence in the world. I mean by that they don't care how they look, don't care if other people like them or not, and they make friends so easily and with that have a great and close friends from that. It is hard to believe I used to be like that back in high school and my first year of college. When I went to Murray State I think thats when things changed for me. I lost all the confidence I ever had. I dont if it was because of the roommates I had, the sorority I joined or the other things happening during that time. I am hoping slowly with things will start to get better. Thanks for letting me just this off of my chest.
I know that is a weird title post but that is what has happened in the last couple of weeks. Some may have now whats been happening if you have been on facebook. Also if you read my blog you may know that I have slowly losing my hair. It has been a really rough time during all of this. I have people staring at me looking like I have some disease, can't do much with my hair, the doctors not nowing what caused this. So my mom and I had been talking about getting me a wig till for the time being. The spots on my head kept getting worse especially the back of my head, I am almost bald to the very top of my head. So they finally came in last two weekends. So in the last week and a half I went to my hair dresser and we cut most of my hair off. I really thought I was going to cry but surprisely I didn't. I think I cried that weekend after seeing how short my hair is and how most of my hair is gone. The first couple of days in the wigs was hard. First it was uncomfortable and the caps for the wigs were itchy, itchy. I felt some days my head was so itchy I had lice. I am still learning how to style them and make them look really cute. Most of the time I feel like I look like a fool. Also during this time my wig has given me blisters off the top of my head and it was very painful. They have finally gone away.
During that time I was wearing a little bandana/scarf deal, I think that was worse than the wigs. People were making fun of me saying I look like a gangster, I am trying to be hood, people staring at me and looking at me like I have a disease. This past weekend I went grocery shopping and I had people laughing, pointing and whispering about me. It was so embrassing. All I wanted to do was go home and cry. My husband says I just shake it off but it is hard when your hair helps your confidence.
Sometimes I wish I had more confidence especially the girls of my wedding board. I look up to a lot of the girls because it seems like have all the confidence in the world. I mean by that they don't care how they look, don't care if other people like them or not, and they make friends so easily and with that have a great and close friends from that. It is hard to believe I used to be like that back in high school and my first year of college. When I went to Murray State I think thats when things changed for me. I lost all the confidence I ever had. I dont if it was because of the roommates I had, the sorority I joined or the other things happening during that time. I am hoping slowly with things will start to get better. Thanks for letting me just this off of my chest.
CMA Fashion Review
Last Wednesday was the CMAS and that is one of my favorite award shows. Probably I am a really big country fan. So I thought I would share who was my favorite dressed and who I just thought missed the mark. I will say this year I feel there were alot more misses, even some of my favs than they were hits.
So my favs in no order.
I loved the way Shania Twain looked. I love the little black cocktail dress. After the year she had she looked amazing.
I think that dress that Miley Cryus has on. It was just cute with a little punch of color.
Carrie Underwood looked amazing. I dont think she ever looks bad.
Nicole and Keith Urban, such a cute couple.
Miranda Lambert, though I think she could have lost those necklaces.
Jennifer Knettles
Last but not least Taylor Swift. She is another girl that I looks never looks bad. I love her style.
Now for the worst list.
Michelle Branch
Martina McBride
Reba, velvet never looks good
Reese Witherspoon, you always look great and this time I feel it was a bust.
So my favs in no order.
I loved the way Shania Twain looked. I love the little black cocktail dress. After the year she had she looked amazing.
I think that dress that Miley Cryus has on. It was just cute with a little punch of color.
Carrie Underwood looked amazing. I dont think she ever looks bad.
Nicole and Keith Urban, such a cute couple.
Miranda Lambert, though I think she could have lost those necklaces.
Jennifer Knettles
Last but not least Taylor Swift. She is another girl that I looks never looks bad. I love her style.
Now for the worst list.
Michelle Branch
Martina McBride
Reba, velvet never looks good
Reese Witherspoon, you always look great and this time I feel it was a bust.
November 9, 2008
Dance Scenes
So I have been on youtube a little bit of the weekend and was just looking for different videos. I started to stumble on different tv characters and the dances that they were famous for.
1. The Carlton dance. I loved the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and loved Carltons love with Tom Jones.
2. The Urkel. I remember Friday nights always being at my grandparents and we would watch TGIF on ABC. I loved Family Matters it used to be one of my favorite shows.
3. Now this is not from tv. These are just some great dance scenes from different movies.
4. The movie Center Stage was on this weekend and I love the last ballet that they did.
I think I may do some tributes to funny or good dances in television or movies. I dont know what do you think??
1. The Carlton dance. I loved the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and loved Carltons love with Tom Jones.
2. The Urkel. I remember Friday nights always being at my grandparents and we would watch TGIF on ABC. I loved Family Matters it used to be one of my favorite shows.
3. Now this is not from tv. These are just some great dance scenes from different movies.
4. The movie Center Stage was on this weekend and I love the last ballet that they did.
I think I may do some tributes to funny or good dances in television or movies. I dont know what do you think??
Fun video clips
So I know this has been posted on different websites and different blogs, but I lov the video of the Evolution of the Dance. It is so funny and just reminds of the dance styles through out the years.
So then I was searching one day and I saw that did that same thing as their first dance for their wedding. It was pretty cute as well. So I thought I would share I can't get enough of these two videos.
So then I was searching one day and I saw that did that same thing as their first dance for their wedding. It was pretty cute as well. So I thought I would share I can't get enough of these two videos.
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