Back when

So here is another round of back when. With this entries I am trying not to skip years when I do pick but I may have to. I am not sure, if I get comments to skip then I may do that.

This one comes from 11-10-96. Again I am back in the 8th grade.

After our puppet show we went back to the Limpers' house. It was fun. We made cinnamon and sugar doughnuts. Then we played hide & seek in their house. Neil and I were a team. We talked alot. I like him. But I like Brandon the most. He is so cute and sweet. He treats me like a queen. He has these beautiful blue eyes so I call him Blue Diamond Eyes. He is so cute! We write each other notes. I write him the most. I will ask him to go see or do something with me like a movie, skating, etc. If we do, we will have alot of fun. I know it. We always do Journal!! Well got to go Journal. More later.

Heather.

I think it is so funny how I write these entries. But I can remember those days spending time at the Limpers. We used to have the best times at their house. And the funny thing is I remember that day. At the time I had the biggest crush on this guy and thought he was something great. I am glad to know this family and glad to have them in my life during that time.

STRESS

Yes I did capitalize that post! And there is a reason why it is capped, just have a lot and I mean lot of stress going on in my life these last couple of weeks!! First part of my stress is work. I have worked in a call center before and it was pretty easy with handling the customers. I mean you knew they were either going to call about benefits or claims. Now with this call center I am dealing with cell phones and plans. And you don't know what the next call is going to be. Sometimes they are easy calls sometimes they are hard or off the wall calls. Some days are good some days aren't. I am trying to let it roll but so hard!! Today was a bit better, I don't know if it was because we were slow or if I am getting more used to the calls and how to do the things.

Then the stress I have been dealing with is my car. Before I left for Texas I had over a $1000 dollars worth of work done to my car. Thought it would be all taken care of not having any problems at all! Well my brother had noticed that is was leaking oil but we watched it and wasn't for awhile. Then last week I did notice it really was so I took in to a local car place. Well turns out I have a cracked gasket, luckily in the front, and it was around $200 to get it fixed. Well Friday night I found when I went to move the car that it was leaking gas! Are you kidding me just what I need?? So we take it to the place again and they just thought the tube was loose. Well then it turns out the gas tank is cracked and I am going to need a new one. Plus then we get a car and the hose is bad as well. So another expensive repair. I am tried of putting money in my car to fix it and then it keeps having problems. I so wish I could afford a new car right now but I can't. So that is my next thing I am saving for. So luckily during this I have great parents and a really great brother who have been really supportive during this. My brother has been so great even though he has an emotional sister to deal with. I felt so bad always crying about it but he has been so reassuring about making sure I am taken good care of! And this is why I am glad I moved down here!

The last stress is getting back in the dating pool and dealing with the opposite sex. I mean there is nothing more to say with that but I am just hoping things can go better.

So there is my stresses for the week. I am working on trying not to let things bother me because I think that is part of the reason for my hair loss that happened last year. My hair is finally growing back slowly and I really dont want to be back in a wig again. I just want to look like before I lost it all. So I hope you all have a great week.

Back when

So when I was cleaning I found some of my old journals from back in high school and some of them are pretty funny. I think I am going to share a couple! Ok this one is back from 11-2-96 and I was still in 8th grade.

Halloween was a blast. I got a lot of candy! (Ok let me interrupt here yes in 8th grade I still tricked or treat. That was the last year because my Grams put her foot down the next year. Her neighborhood is a nice part of town and they gave out great candy so I had fun and I don't care) The next night I went skating with Brandon. It was so much fun. I love him so much!! (It's funny how in 8th grade we think we know what true love is) About Tracy's Halloween party it was on October 25. We did the Macerana, YMCA, Mucho Man, and more. Then Jessie hooked me up with Brandon. Brandon and I danced and the group played Truth or Dare. Brandon kissed me. We got a big group dance to "One Sweet Day". It was a blast!! Sad news: Tracy is moving on Nov 29. Sob!! Yesterday was Brandon's and my one week anniversary! We are going skating Monday with the youth group and Tim is going to be there. Oh No! Well got to go!!
Heather

I know look back on this and laugh! I was so worried about an ex being there with a new boy. And I was just so boy crazy during that time. So this one kinda funny but I guess not. I am going to try and find some more to show you all how I was back then plus helps me to rememeber things too

Song of the Day

So another round of songs that I like and have been stuck in my head. I just dont feel like going into detail rather let you enjoy them.

The people at work got me hooked on this song

Just love her new single!!

Heard this at the club too and have it stuck in my head!!

In Remembrance

So I have posted things on my facebook page and change the photo for today but for me is today is a day of remembrance. Nine years ago, my family lost a great man. That man was my Grandpa Wiemer. My grandfather was a great father, grandfather, uncle, brother and man all around. I have so many great memories of my grandfather. Some of my favorites were all the small trips and the 2 big trips to Disney World that he and my grandmother took me on when we were younger. He took us to places like Noveau, Illinois to see the old Mormon settlement, Lake of the Ozarks, Santa Claus, Indiana to name a few. I used to love all of our small trips we always had a blast going to that place and doing what we could from shows, amusement parks, water parks, miniature golf, etc. I think by the time we got back he would be more worn out than we were. I remember when he first took us down to Disney World. It was the greatest experience for us kids being a place designed for fun, excitement and imagination. I love watching the video from our trip and seeing how goofy he was with us. Another great memory of him was he taught me how to swim in the Kaskaskia River. He had me behind the boat and was teaching me to put my face in the water and come up and down out of it. Well the one time I came up I hit my mouth on the edge of the boat and chipped my tooth (I will always have that reminder). He felt so bad that it happened but in the end I am grateful that he took the time out to teach me to swim and love the water. Thats where I would spend alot of my summers was out at their clubhouse (later turned home) and we would go out on the river, played on the beach, swam and sometimes I would go fishing with them. Another favorite is that he would do anything for us kids, two examples on this. The first is when we took a Wiemer family trip to Kentucky Lake and we found a miniature golf place that week and we loved to play there. One this day my brother really wanted to go and play end though it was raining. My parents didn't want to stop because of the rain but my grandpa ended up stopping since Jonathan wanted to play. Boy did we have the best time playing!! I still look at those pics and think about how much fun we had. The other memory is when we would have family BBQs even if no one else wanted to play Grandpa would go out and start a softball game. Eventually the whole family would be out there playing and having a great old time. He would always let us win and those days would always be the best. As we got older thats when he started to get sicker but during that we would always joke he was like the energizer bunny. He kept going and going despite what happened to him. But my senior year is when I think he just up. My grandpa was a very strong man and I don't think he liked the fact that he had to rely on someone else to help take care of him. I can still remember today being in class getting the phone call that he was not doing well and if I wanted to come up to the hospital. Of course I did I wanted to say good-bye one last time. Even though he was in a coma when we got there I think he heard us say our final goodbyes to him. I miss getting to hear him tell us his stories about his life and about my mom and brothers growing up. He was a goofball, always being a jokster a times! He would do anything for anybody. The only regrets I have is that 1) I didn't get to spend more time with him and really start to enjoy all the things he had to talk about and 2) is that he never got to meet his other two grandkids, Emily and Josh. I know he would enjoy having another two in his life just like enjoyed having my brother and me for all those years. Today is greatly missed and not forgotten!! I can't wait to meet him and heaven and get to talk to him again! I know you have been watching down on us and I am sorry this year I can't come and talk to you like I normally do but I hope next year I can get that chance! I love you Grandpa!


My grandma lighting my grandpas remembrance candle at my wedding. I like to think that day he was with us in spirit even though he couldn't be there in body!

Song of the Day

So there are a few songs that have been stuck in my head so I am just going to post them and let you enjoy them.

This has been stuck in after we went to Grahams.

Just like the song


So I hope you enjoy these songs I have since they have been stuck in my head

My Important People - I

So I think for the months leading up to Thanksgiving I am going to do a post about people that are really special in my life and why. For this first installment I am going to talk about my family. And for this one it is the 3 people that I have spent most of my life with. I am talking about my father, my mother and my brother.

Why these people are near and dear to me:

My Father - My father is quite a character!! If most of you know my father he can be a goofball but I love him for that. There is never a dull moment with him and sometimes you need him to be goofy just to cheer you up when you are down. You never know whats coming from him whether it be a mullet wig and crazy hat for Thanksgiving breakfast or wearing a Mickey mouse bow tie on his daughter's wedding day. My father is also a godly man which has been a blessing and I didn't realize how much this meant to me till I was older. I have grown up in church all my life and sometimes would hate being the pastor's kid. But my father was just doing what he was called to do and he has such a great and mighty faith! I know that God gave him all the great wisdom in the world to raise my brother and I in the best way possible. One of my favorite things that I did with my dad is our Friday night father/daughter date nights at the racetrack. Its how we grew to love racing and through that we have something that I am so proud to be a part of, which is our raceway ministry program. My father is a loving, caring, generous, non judging and always there for me no matter what. I always be a daddies girl and nothing will ever change that.

My Mother - I did do a post about what I love about my mother on her birthday but I will again state why I love her. My mother is first such a godly woman and I am very glad that God gave these two people as my parents. She has always tried to teach me right from wrong even though at times I had to learn those lessons on my own. She has been there to pick me back up when I needed it even though she thinks sometimes she should have let me fall and pick myself back up. But at times I needed her to pick me back up. I have so many of the same similarities as my mother now and I am quite proud of it. She is a caring woman, always there for people, helpful, loving, honest godly, and friendly people that you will ever met. As I get older I realize I am more and more like her everyday. My mother has truly been my rock this past year. She has given me so much support through the losing of my hair, my other sickness and the hardest thing, my divorce. Without her I don't know I would done through all of this. Not only is she my mother but she has become one of my best friends and I love that we can have a relationship like this. She is always a rock when times are tough and I know if she can be that strong throug things so can I.

Last but not least, My Brother - My brother is the baby in the family but sometimes I think he should have been the older one. Not because of that he acts older and I dont, which that is not the case. Just for the fact that he is 23 going on 24 but sometimes he has more wisdom on things than I could ever dream of. Growing up alot of the time we didn't get along but about his 8th grade year/ my junior year we started to have a close bond partly to the fact that we had the same group of friends. But I am glad we did because it helped out growing up. At times I became the protective big sister and he the protective younger brother. He could spot a crappy boyfriend a mile a way and most of the time I wouldn't listen but now that I am older I really have began to rely on his feedback and comments on things. I am glad that I moved down with him because we really have began to bond more as brother and sister. I want us to have a close relationship because if God forbid anything happens to my parents he is the only person I have. And I want to be in his life and he in mine. He is such a great brother and even though our relationship suffered for a while things are getting right back on place. He is like my father as being a godly man, he has the Doussard sense of humor but he is there whenever needed.

I love my family. I mean really words can't describe everything I feel for them but I am glad I have them in my life. Next on the list will be my grandparents!!