Debbie Downer

So that is exactly how I have been lately. And to all my readers I don't mean to be. It is just that I am going through a lot and it really has been getting to me. If you are have read my blog, I was having problems with losing my hair. When I first found the spot on the back of my head it was a little bit bigger than a quarter. I was going to the doctor. I was getting cortzoid shots in the bald spot. Let me tell you that hurts so bad. It feels like someone is kicking you in the back of the head when they get down with the shots. So during the time it started to get worse so the dermatologist put me on a steroid for a month. Again that did not help and it was still getting worse. I went to my primary care doctor and he is having me go get blood work done to see if there is something else causing it. So now my spot is huge and still getting worse. Now this is all happening under the hair on the crown of my head. I am bald on my left side of my head and there is about 1/4 of hair on my right side. Now I have found another spot on the top of my head which is about the size of a quarter. And when people see my hair they all look at me that I have some disease and want to be near me. It is so embrassing. I can't help what is going and if I knew what was trust me I would take something to help it. I have already decided that if it gets worse I am shaving my hair off and getting a wig. I thought I would have be doing that when I get old but now when I am in my 20s. On top of that I am so tired and at times my body hurts. I know this sounds bad or weird but I really hope my blood work comes back and they find something. I just want to know what is going on with my body.

So I want to apologize to the people who have been wondering about me, emailing me, calling me etc. I just haven't felt like dealing with people cause I just have been so worn out and in a depressed state. Things are getting better and I am starting to feel a bit better. The hardest thing for me is just having people there that understand what I am going through. It is so hard because I just want to someone to not freak out when I tell about and then show them whats going on. I really need a shoulder to lean on during this. I promise from now on my blogs will be more positive. And I have a lot this weekend to write about.