Song of the Day

So I realized I haven't posted in over a month. I just have been busy with work. My hours haven't been bad during that time just they were constantly changing and most days I would come home from work so worn out. So my blog got ignored again but something I am trying to work on.

Today's song of the day when I first heard I really enjoyed because I enjoy this singer. Well then I heard the song and really listened to the lyrics and those lyrics kinda rang true for me. Today's song is by Michael Buble and it is his new song "Haven't Met You Yet". I am going to post the lyrics with the song so you understand why the mean to me. He talks about that he has a lot of broken hearts and trying to get yourself back in there. And trying to give up with things don't go your way but he knows that that right person will come along and that is how I feel. I thought I had my Mr. Right but I know that person will come along but I just haven't met him yet! So enjoy the song.



I'm not surprised,
Not everything lasts,
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in,
I talk myself out,
I get all worked up,
Then I let myself down,

I tried so very hard not to lose it;
I came up with a million excuses,
I thought I thought of every possibility,

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get~ mmm.......
I just haven't met you yet.

Mmmmm ....

I might have to wait,
I’ll never give up,
I guess it's half timin', and the other half's luck,
Wherever you are,
Whenever it's right,
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazin',
And baby your love is gonna change me,
And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm....

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get, mmmm....
I just haven't met you yet.

They say all’s fair
in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it,
we'll get it right an',
we'll be united

Instrumental

and I know that we can be so amazin',
And bein' in your life is gonna change me,
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmmmm

And someday I know it'll all turn out,
And I'll work to work it out,
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get.

Oh, you know it'll all turn out,
and you'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get, yeah
I just haven't met you yet.

I just haven't met you yet,
Oh, promise you kid,
To give so much more than I get.

I said love love love love love love love.....
I just haven't met you yet
Love love love .....
So doy day ay ay ay, ay ay yeah
I just haven't met you yet!

Song of the Day

So I haven't done this in awhile and there have been some new songs out that I have been loving. So I hope you are ready and maybe you like some of these songs as well.


Kesha "Tic Tok"


LMFAO "I'm in Miami Trick"


Jay-Z featuring Alicia Keys "Empire State of Mind"



"Meet Me Halfway" by Black Eyed Peas

2009 in review

It seems like everybody does their review of their 2009. My 2009 has been an eventful year to say the least!! It has alot of ups and some downs as well. I know people to the major points each month but there is not alot each month so I am just going to do the highlights.

The first is that in April we sold my Grandmothers house. This house has some great and very fond memories. Her house used to be the summer house, where we would go in the summers when we would go out on the lake, have BBQ's and where we would play cards. Later it turned it my grandparents real house. It was really hard to say good-bye to the house.

The next major thing is the one thing that I have dealt with a lot this past year. That thing was my divorce. After falling in love with I thought was the one the marriage just crumbled. We were together almost 3 years and only married a year. I had sick and was trying to get better and then the next thing I know he is gone. It has been very tough dealing with it all but in the end he needs to do what is best for him. I have been doing my best to work on me and get me ready for the next one. He did leave me with a lot of unanswered questions when he left.

The third major thing that happened for me was I moved to Texas. This was a major step for me. I moved down here knowing a few friends in the surrounding areas and then my brother. I came here without a job but this step was very very needed for me to help heal with the divorce. It has been hard not having my parents close since we are very close. I have found a job down here and hopefully I will get on a set schedule so I can finish going back to school. I still really want to my get my degree and do PR work for NASCAR. It has been nice living with my brother and getting to know him again. We have had our ups and downs but it has been great being down here. I am still looking for a church to get involved in and also to make some new friends.

So that has been my 2009 in a nut shell. Looking forward to my 2010 and see what it holds for me.

I'm Alive!!!

Wow I can't believe I haven't posted last year!! I have a lot to catch up with and so I know what I am going to be working on. So I am going to try and get another post done tonight.

Heartbreak

You may be curious about this title but I am going to put it out there. As most of you know that this past year I went through a divorce. It took me a good while to get myself over the divorce and just work on myself. I had to make sure that I healed and was truly ready for the next relationship. Well after being down here in Texas for a while I felt I was ready to start putting myself out there and getting to know people. I wasn't ready to jump right in but at least be friends with the person and see if something more develops. So I am going to kinda to go into some detail about this experience I have had. Yes there is a chance that the other person involved may be reading this but at this post I don't care. While I have been working at my job I have gotten to know some new people and also made some really good friends. One of them of course was a male and over the course of this we really got to know it each other. Of course, I fell for him. He was so easy to talk and just was someone different. I really started to feel something for him when we went to Schlitterbahn. Just felt some sparks that day for some reason. Well the weekend we went to Austin, it was me, him and another friend. Well he and I drove up together and like normal were talking just having a good time. We went to the club and we all started drinking having a good time. As the night progressed I felt like he and I were being really flirty towards each other and always being kinda close with each other. After we go out, we always go to Ihop and on the car ride there and then the car ride back to the place that we were staying at he had his arms around me the whole time. When we got back to work that week he was different and was kinda a jerk towards me. We had a talk and things were cool for a day. Then some other things happened and I was just hurt. So after that I choose to ignore him, at the time it was the only thing I knew to do because I didn't know what to say or do. I ended up just emailing him putting everything out there and how I felt. I was completely honest with him. It took him almost three weeks to get back to me on what I had sent to him. During this time our friendship really suffered, which sucked. When he did get back to me he let me know that he had a lot going on with his life, which I understand and that if he hurt me he never meant to. It sucks because he did whether he realizes it or not. At this point in the game we dont really talk anymore like we used to and I am working on picking up the pieces again. I just wish I could find someone I start getting to know and possibly have that relationship with. I never wanted to have another broken heart so quick. Sometimes I wonder if I am not meant to find love again or find that special someone. It really sucks seeing all these people around me so happy and some are now starting families. I wish that could be me. But this was a lesson for me and maybe something good will come along.

Song of the Day

So my song of the day is another country song. It is by Lady Antebellum and the name of the song is Need You Know. Just something about the song kinda rings out to me. I guess this song plays into with the marriage right after he left is he ever thought about me. Then the song plays into the part of the guy I was interested in a little bit ago. So I putting the song up with the lyrics.


Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I cant fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

Its a quarter after one, Im all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldnt come, but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, cant stop looking at the door.
Wishing youd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

Its a quarter after one, Im a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldnt call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes Id rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
Its a quarter after one, Im all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldnt call but Im a little drunk and I need you now.
And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now

Self Esteem

With everything that has happened to me in the past year my self esteem has been shot. The two biggest things that have caused me to lose it are the hair lost that I have had and then the divorce. Mainly the issue is that I don't feel pretty anymore. I was with someone when I was losing my hair and he saw me go through this process. Now my hair is starting to grow back and I still have some bald spots and they are covered right now. I am hoping that by next year it will be all the way filled in. Though I am not as bald as I was by the end of last year, I still don't feel very pretty. I know people say that hair is not that important but to me it is. I don't feel pretty or beautiful at all. Everytime when I go out I still feel like people are staring at me and they can see the bald areas. Most of it is in my head but it is so hard to shake. Going through such a physical change plays on your emotions and it has really played on my self esteem too. I am getting back into the dating scene and I am really worried and afraid that guys are not going to understand my health situation. Also I worried that no one is going to find me beautiful because of the missing hair. I just want a guy to be like wow you are gorgeous with how I look now. I want someone to look at me like I am the most beautiful woman in the world instead of stares like I am a freak. Maybe something will change and I will feel gorgeous no matter what. And I am trying to work on not to let this work me up and I wont have any issues. Maybe that's why I am having trouble with the dating scene is because I am not confident in myself. I just can't wait till the next man comes along and just makes me feel the most beautiful woman in the world.